Because I’ve recently lost my marbles.
I guess I got a touch overwhelmed recently… I have so much going on and I’m finding it hard to dredge up energy to maintain all my commitments.
It was ok in the beginning – volunteering for three places – looking after 4 websites and some blogs.
Then I got a part time job and started studying Autocad. Add to that a new long distance relationship. Add to that an impending court battle. And another couple of websites – and a promise to get articles in to a news letter monthly. Making DVDs and CDs for friends – and general life – yes, sometimes I eat, shop or shower!… sigh.
Now – when I sit down to do my course I have to shut off everything around me that beeps, buzzes, pokes or bings. I get texts, and phone calls, and emails, and FB notifications, MSN messages and a room mate that keeps popping in to say hello – he’s much chattier when drinking wine. lol
So I shut it all down and feel like I’m ignoring people!!! lol I get back online four hours later to find 50 messages and such… and voice mails and – well, you get the idea.
The problem is… that I sit down and shut it all off. Not ten minutes later I find myself logging in…habit! I stopped offering to help out a lot about two weeks ago, when I could see this all coming. So for now I’m not completely involved in the volunteer projects. That erks me. I enjoyed those. And I feel like I’ve let those teams down.
So… my friend just wrote a wee blog on people exploding and I believe I’m going to do just that – or an implosion. Right after I finish lesson three here, and reply to those five notifications on facebook, Tweet some stuff, oh, and get the towel off my hair, make a tea and then answer that text..listen to some voice mail… burn the discs that were asked of me today… erm.. where was I? Right…back to work… I can explode later. lol