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It hit me like a ton of lead tonight.  I’ve never felt loved by parents.  I mean, I know they are shit and they’ve done awful things to me.. but


As an adult.  I’ve never had parents that loved me.  My soul exploded.  I’m 52 and never had parents love me.


Humans are Free

A good read from

I read this, this morning and although it’s not new to me… it explains it very well.   Have a look around their site.. all sorts of great links.  Eye openers.

The brainwashing

Another mass-enslavement tool that they are using against us, is the so called educational system. Schools are no longer what they used to be and children are learning to memorize without thinking and obey without questioning.

In fact, this established educational system is extremely expensive to keep operational and obsolete in the age of the internet.

“Why obsolete?” you may ask. Because the internet gives us free access to almost infinite amounts of information.

So why are we still paying huge amounts of money for governmental education? Because the world’s “elite” require that our children learn conformity and inside-the-box thinking.

What can we do about it?

Mankind’s faith is hanging in the balance right now, as the control of the NWO octopus spreads. On the one hand, we are very close to our complete enslavement, while on the other hand, we could easily crumble to the ground their pyramid of power, by simply uniting against their deception in a peaceful revolution of minds, hearts and souls.

I’ve asked myself for years what is their greatest weapon of enslavement. Is it poor education combined with constant indoctrination? Is it the fear generated by religion? Is it the fear of being punished (jailed or killed) by the system, or is it the invisible enslavement of the monetary system?

In my opinion, all of the above combined had a huge impact on our society and the way we think, but their biggest weapon is hands-down the financial system!

Currency slaves

The financial system has stealthily enslaved our species and now we are being used as currency slaves. We work from 9 to 5 every day, in boring and depressing environments, not stimulated by anything creative or constructive.

In most cases, the sole motivation for going to work, is the next paycheck — and no matter how hard we work, we never seem to have enough money.

Have you ever wondered why mega-corporations (reaping $billions/year in profits) pay dozens of millions to their CEOs and as close as possible to the minimum wage to the rest of the employees?

This has been carefully designed, because a person that is constantly “on the edge,” will never have time for self-education, introspection and — eventually — spiritual awakening.

Isn’t this our main purpose on Earth? To become spiritual beings (and by spiritual, I obviously don’t mean religious) and complete the incarnation cycle?

“They” don’t need educated people, who are capable of critical thinking and have spiritual goals. No, this kind of people are dangerous to the establishment!

“They” want obedient “robots,” just intelligent enough to operate the machines and keep the system running, but stupid enough never to ask questions.

Money is the eye of the “devil”

All of the world’s biggest problems have their roots deeply embedded in the financial plague: wars are profitable, diseases are profitable, Earth’s plundering is profitable, human slavery and inhumane working conditions are profitable.

Our leaders have been corrupted by money and mankind’s collective mission on Earth has been hijacked by money.

So why do we need the financial system, in the first place? Actually, we don’t need it (at least, not anymore). The planet doesn’t charge us a cent for using its natural resources and we have the technology to extract them without physically working a day.


A year ago … on Sept 23rd, Mike died.  Two years ago, on Sept 24th – I completed two horrific days in court against my dad.  This year, in May, my little brother died.  This time last year I was just getting out of the hospital – self harm.  I’ve come a long way.  I feel stronger and stronger by the day.  I still have good days and bad.. but the bad aren’t pulling me under anymore.  I thank my kids and roommate for this time to get my balance, and my life, in order.  Like a life raft.  I’d also like to thank me.. for doing the hard work, all these years.  For holding on to the help offered and using the time wisely.  Yes, I’ve slept a lot, eaten too much and stayed home… more than I’d like to admit.  Sometimes your soul needs to rest.

RIP my Little Brother

I was just reading my last post – beginning of summer.  Hoping the depression would lift with summer.  Little did I know at that time my brother would die two weeks later.

We had a lovely service for him.  Tracey and Makyla got a Japanese Maple tree and we planted his ashes with the tree at Steves’ house.  We had the Beatles playing at the service and talked of shiny things.  

It’s too bad that family turns so nasty during these things.  Oh well… they’ve never been here for me anyway, what was I expecting.  I did proud by him, with help from the people that loved him and knew him the most.  That’s what matters.

RIP my little brother.  Your troubled life is now over.  I hope you are finding some serenity and that you’ve come back as something as beautiful and caring as you were in your life.



One of my very favourite moon shots.


Manny Moon

Something to Remember

This is something to remember.  I often feel I have to answer to someone.. someone I don’t know.. well, no… no I actually don’t.  Take that. ha ha  It can be stressful in the world and on FB… people say shitty things, daily.  But I can remove myself from it, block or remove the person.  I can’t save / raise awareness with everyone… and it’s awful, but the longer this goes, the more I remove.  




I’m Just Going to Leave These Here.

Sometimes you see the best stuff on FB…. so I snarfed a couple that really speak to me.

Magic is all around us… I’ve forgotten how to find it.  But I will.  I will find it.  I have to.

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