How long have I had this blog? I stopped writing a long time ago. I don’t know why. Or do I? I know that I’ve been through a lot. I know I’ve come far. I know I’ve worked my butt off for this last year and I’m seeing results. It feels really good.
I wouldn’t even know where to start.
I still fight the government for those living on low incomes.. as I do. I finally have a stable place to call home and my world is calm. Calm is most lovely.
I went through a few rough years. I spent last summer in a shelter. This wasn’t all bad. It gave me space and time to start getting my life back together. I’ve finally done all my taxes, by myself. I owed from 2008!! Wow, does that feel great! I was married. Briefly. To a man I loved for years. Loving him and living with him were two very different things. And so, going to the shelter provided me relief from that situation and a place to begin. At first I felt I was spinning my wheels, getting nowhere, because the system is not set up to help folks, only to give the illusion. Until I met a worker at the 416. She helped me go from angry and frustrated, to holding my head up high. She walked with me, for the year, helping, guiding, offering help, coaching, and holding me accountable in a really lovely way. I am at the point where I feel I no longer need to see her, but I like her and want to see her lol I think the poor girl must be sick of me as I use the time now to ramble on… she’s very patient.
I’ve applied for the Ontario Victim’s Compensation. And I’m going to court next May against someone who assaulted me. I think.. I’m feeling like I count. I can stand up and say, these things were done to me and they are wrong, and these people need to be held accountable. I never really felt that before. I’m also in a place where I don’t accept people in my life that don’t respect me.
I’m on day six of not smoking. I quit last summer for four months and it felt wonderful! I want that again.. so here I am… starting again.. starting over. It’s hard. I really feel like I want one, but I know in the end it’s worth it. So I’m eating like there’s no tomorrow. 😦 ugh.. I do want to lose weight, but I also feel with the weather, it’s not doable right now. I sleep a lot. I’m hoping with the warm weather will come some oomph. I may be a little depressed right now. I know it will pass. It will not take over though. I know that won’t happen, I know I won’t let that happen ever again.
For now… I’m done.
I’ve been hunting for a new blog home…. I want to do one for photography.
I do photos of the moon, local bands, events I attend (rallies) and general life.
BUT I’m sitting here now… and thinking – I can just alter this one a bit. I’ve had it a long time and wanted to start getting back into blogging, so why not just add a whole new section, some new bits for the photos! It will certainly get me back on here!
Send me positive vibes on getting my arse in gear. lol
It’s been a long time since I visited my site. I guess I got busy. Life is like that 🙂
I’m still fighting with Put Food in the Budget and alive. A ton of things have changed in my life, but I’m not going to do that. I’m going to start fresh, right here, right now. I’m going to start blogging again. I miss it.
And that’s me, today.
Visionary visits city, advocating social justice. Our Mike Balkwill from the Put Food in the Budget campaign is traveling through the North of Ontario….
Read the article here.
A ‘reality’ TV show in the UK, with the less than subtle name ‘Benefits Street’, is being used to whip up hatred against the victims of austerity and social cutbacks and to lay the ground for the even more vicious measures the Cameron Government is preparing. Our allies in Disabled People Against the Cuts (DPAC) are participating in a demonstration on Monday to challenge this disgusting show and those responsible for it. They have asked OCAP to get as many people here as possA ‘reality’ TV show in the UK, with the less than subtle name ‘Benefits Street’, is being used to whip up hatred against the victims of austerity and social cutbacks and to lay the ground for the even more vicious measures the Cameron Government is preparing. Our allies in Disabled People Against the Cuts (DPAC) are participating in a demonstration on Monday to challenge this disgusting show and those responsible for it. They have asked OCAP to get as many people here as possible to tweet and e mail messages supporting this fight back. Please read this information and do all you can to set in motion a barrage of electronic solidarity on Monday. (Thank you John Clarke )ible to tweet and e mail messages supporting this fight back. Please read this information and do all you can to set in motion a barrage of electronic solidarity on Monday. (Thank you John Clarke )
Communique from DPAC:
Last Monday, 6th of January the first episode of a new “Reality TV” show was broadcast in the UK called “Benefits Street”. This is the latest in a long line of TV shows which are designed to demonize Social Security Claimants and paint them as scroungers of “hard working people’s tax money”.
This is deliberate misinformation and is very much in line with the UK government propaganda that unemployed people are to blame for unemployment, not the government’s own austerity economics, and that people claiming out of work and disability benefits are just too lazy to earn their own money, and that people who live on benefits are doing so as a “lifestyle choice”.
You can view the trailer for the series or if you wish the entire first episode . And here is some of the media fallout from the show 1 , 2, 3, 4.
We at DPAC and other campaigning organizations in the UK have had enough of this propaganda and we’re going to fight back.
A Demonstration has been organized at the offices of the television production company that is responsible for making this series. Ironically they call themselves “Love Productions” – they are on twitter as @LoveProdHouse
The Demonstration has been set for 3pm GMT on Monday 13th Jan, that is 10am EST. You can read the announcement here and here.
As well as a demo outside the production offices, we’re going to be making a noise on twitter and we would really appreciate support from you. It would add to our numbers and let activists in the UK know that we are not alone.
We will be tweeting to the production company @LoveProdHouse and the TV Broadcaster @Channel4 to let them know that these programs are not acceptable, and we would really appreciate it if you could join with us in this. If you are not a twitter user you can Email the broadcaster Channel 4- HERE.
We are preparing a web-page with pre-prepared tweets that you may wish to use which will be up on Monday HERE or you are welcome to tweet them your own tweets.
Please use the hashtags #BenefitsStreet and the hashtags #DPAC #OCAP so that we in the UK can see that you are with us.
As well as the demonstration in the afternoon, the second episode airs on TV at 9pm GMT – 4pm EST.
We will be out tweeting in force to try to get our message across about the poison spread by this sort of programme. Once again we would really appreciate you joining us in this.
The second episode of this program focuses on immigration, which means its likely to be just as toxic as the first episode – if not even more so.
Credits to Malu and Serenity and the entire Put Food in the Budget team!!
I haven’t been here in a long time. I’m still doing all I did before… Only two jobs and one volunteer. The long distance relationship.. well, it’s busy and painful and beautiful. It might not end well. I do love him. The police tell me they have arrested my dad… I guess he isn’t allowed to leave the country and has to go to court to set a date. This will take a long time. I wonder if he will live that long. Thing is… if he just admitted it… I’d have closure. I guess … him being charged again, same charge – is a bit of closure. It’s the world saying ok, we know it happened and the process has begun to make amends. But no one can make amends for what he did. No one can fix it. 17 years of abuse… I’ve been living with / through… I kid myself if I think it hasn’t affected my world. What do I want? I never wanted jail time for him… just help.. but there is no help for that. So I don’t know.
I’m living in a warehouse. I’m probably going to be homeless at some point. The city says we aren’t allowed to live here.. but I love it here. My day consists of biking to an apartment to shower… handwashing dishes in cold water, carrying buckets of water up and down. Of wondering when I’m going to be homeless .. and my cat too. I wasn’t stable enough to have a pet.. but she was left to me, so I have her and love her.
I’m really shitty with money. It’s not the end of the month yet and I’m broke. lol
I drink too much. I think I have to quit. I’m destroying myself. I’m destroying my relationships. I’ve decided to look up Al-anon meetings tomorrow… it’s my first step. I should be in AA and IA… but one step at a time.
Basically I’m a mess and I don’t even know why I’m writing except to get it out.
It’s been a horrid week… I saw a dog get killed and my friend’s mom died on her birthday and all the rest. I don’t know.
That’s all for now. Maybe later I can write something more important.